Submissive Stella

All I want to do right now is curl up in a ball under my covers and cry.  I don’t really want to wake up dehydrated with puffy eyes though so I’m trying to keep it together.

As per usual, nothing is actually wrong but my anxiety is high today and I feel so alone.

I’m watching Titanic to distract myself but I’ll have to stop soon.  Once the ship starts sinking, I basically just cry through the rest of the movie.  No puffy eyes…

I still need to continue the 30 days of kink posts I have been doing but every time I look at a prompt my mind just freezes.

I’m at a loss.  I don’t know how to make myself better.  Counseling isn’t anywhere close to being in the financial cards… and there just aren’t other options.

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maybe because I often feel like a heartless bitch or a robot. Or perhaps my heart is made of stone, I feel like I cant emotionally cant connect to my writing. I want to write with feeling, with REAL feeling! Stuff that can make a person cry, or laugh.

Not happening.

However, I was trolling the net looking for inspiration, looking for something to help connect with my writing, to help me with my emotional outpouring when I saw this post on tips.

So an anon asked us to give some tips for kiss scenes…and I’m gonna give it a try!

Rule #1: Before

What happens before they kiss. Is there a conversation going on? An emotional reunion? An intimate moment? Describe what the characters are doing to lead up to the kiss or to them wanting to kiss.

Rule #2: Eye Contact

What are they looking at? Each other?…

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